The Hidden Beauty

They called me ugly when I was small.

But I am a real beauty queen now.

Limit

We are birds with clipped wings, flightless, chattering, feeding, living and imitating.

The skies the limit,
without wings that is all we have, there is nothing left. 

STPM

It is so hard. Really hard. Feel like giving up but I tell myself I can't. In fact, I cannot afford to give up now.

This exam really change me a lot. It makes me feel so much quiet than I am before now.

God, please grant me the energy and wisdom so that I can through this year peacefully.Please tell me to be stronger in minds and body.

The Swing

17 years ago, my grandma used to put me on this swing.

I sit on her lap, observing her wrinkled pair of hands.

17 years after, I came back to Ipoh and the swing is still there.

But grandma is no longer there. Only memories are left behind.

I get emotional every time looking at this picture.

It carries such a heavy meaningful message which cannot be folded by words.

Am grateful to freeze all these memories in this piece of picture.

Hoping that every time I see it, I see you too grandma.

A thought

Here are my some of my random thoughts.I have been down for so long time. I have keeping these all by myself and not single soul know about it. I guess I will just swallow it up and cheer myself up. Recently, I have been thinking again whether STPM is still my option or not. What if I did badly and enter a uni that I don't like? What if I did not get the courses that I like? All of my friends have already enter uni and havin' their own life there. But why am I still here? Many questions arise inside my thought. I have putting up a smile for quite some time. I am tired of it as I want to smile genuinely. I don't want to fake myself anymore. I have been all by myself all this while. Guess I will just let go myself and be free.

I am grateful I have a bunch of classmates who cheer me up at hard times too. At times, I always think that why my surrounding friends are always better and enjoying so much their life whereby I am not. But come to think of it, my life is not as bad as theirs too. This is what a friend told me in phone. In fact, I was told my life is the best among the all. I was blessed with all the stuffs I am having now. I can get what I want and desire and yet I still keep wanting more. How stupid I am. I don't even realise that I am having such a good and contented life. Thank God for sending an angel to realise how grateful I am.

Today, I managed to sent some of my friends in the airport. The feeling is not as bad as I had thought. In fact, it gave me an energy to sustain life and work harder so that one day I will be like them too, a person with goals and dreams in their hands. I want to be a better person too. Lord, please help with that. I am still grateful that I still have mom supports though I have been harsh all these while. I am sorry and love you, mom. And thanks Janice.

I will enjoy life from now on.